Empathy with a Kidney Bean

It  didn’t seem strange to have empathy with the kidney bean left in the can after the initial dumping. I had to rinse them before putting them in the chili, and all but one made their way into the sieve. I could have just rinsed it into the sink, you know, because I am a responsible recycler and rinse my cans. (I had to weigh the insufferability of that last phrase against my guilt for so many years of not rinsing, as if that helps the planet). I didn’t rinse it down the sink though, I rinsed it into the sieve, because I didn’t want it to feel unworthy. I literally had that thought. I was concerned about the kidney bean’s feelings. 

To clarify, I do not believe beans have feelings. I do not believe vegetables have feelings. And, I eat meat, so it is safe to say I am not concerned with bacon’s feelings. And yet, I wanted this kidney bean to feel wanted, appreciated, and trusted to perform that for which it was canned in the first place.

I can’t decide if this is a strength or a hindrance. 

I blame the golden rule for this confusion. It’s so simple: “do unto others as you would have them do unto you.” But does that really extend to kidney beans? What exactly was I hoping for from this kidney bean, which I was about to cook, by the way? Or was I blending or confusing the golden rule and karma. If I value this kidney bean, I too will feel valued. And by valued, I don’t just mean valued, but valued in the way that I think I need. That’s a lot to put on a kidney bean.

Empathy is a tricky virtue, and virtue is a tricky trap. 

Often we wield empathy as a tool. We’re not always conscious of it, but sometimes we are. It is the trident of martyrs. I empathize, therefore I sacrifice, therefore I am worthy, therefore I should be considered worthier, therefore attention must be paid. I, 100%, have been guilty of that more times than I’m comfortable with. If I’m nice, if I offer to help, if I ease, save, solve, I will receive the same in return. In which case I am making empathy a transaction with conditional expectations. Who was I to assume that this kidney bean needed solving or saving? This is not empathy, this is emotional consumerism. This is virtue heraldry. This does not serve the kidney bean.

Or…

Who was I really empathizing with? The kidney bean or myself. It’s possible I was projecting my historic sense of loneliness onto this kidney bean. I was imposing a narrative on their experience that was my own. It is highly likely that this kidney bean did not feel like the least interesting person at the Thanksgiving table as a young sprout. And I’m sure they don’t feel a sense of inadequacy when their fellow kidney beans talk about the latest article from the Sunday Times which they still get delivered. And it is doubtful that this kidney bean takes notice of how much narrower the other kidney beans’ waists are. I know nothing of this kidney bean’s story, nor did I take the time to find out. This is not empathy. This is narrative piracy. This does not serve the kidney bean.

Or...

Perhaps it was one of those rare moments when, free from ego or agenda, I did not want that kidney bean to die alone, but, instead, be eaten with their friends. Empathy requires past experience. It demands the personalization that is the result of living through something. And, after the recognition of that, it also requires the act of getting out of the way. Of releasing expectation of reward. Of shedding solution seeking. It demands the extraordinary act of absolute stillness. Of simply being with another human in the thick of a lived moment and understanding because you’ve lived a similar moment. It’s the act of being present without being prescriptive or proactive. It’s the extraordinary privilege of sharing the peace that we truly are not alone, and the pain or ache or stagnation or anger or fear is more manageable when shared; just as the joy, surprise and awe is more magnificent when shared.

So, in fact, empathy is not a hindrance, but an act of bravery; because sharing one’s heart is scary and risky and vulnerable, and has the power to connect all of the different us-es, no matter who we are. And though it may seem silly to empathize with a kidney bean, especially considering the irony of ultimately eating it, I will not resist the impulse any time it arises, because the more I practice, the better equipped I’ll be when empathy is required on a personal, local, national and even global level.

Emma Thompson Would Be So Disappointed in Me

 Emma Thompson would be so disappointed in me. 

Starting today, that is my new response to my body loathing routine. My usual response is to call myself Fatty McFatterson, so I feel like this is a step in, at the very least, a more interesting direction. Emma (we’re on a first name basis in my universe) has and continues to speak so honestly and eloquently about not wasting time worrying about how you look, reason number 3582 that I love her. 

        “Don’t waste your time, don’t waste your life’s purpose worrying about your body.”

                         -Emma Thompson, Stephen Colbert Show, 2022

So, yes, she would be disappointed in me, in a plucky, loving, encouraging way, but still disappointed, because I have wasted and continue to waste so much time worrying, hating, and being disgusted by my body. 

• I compare myself to friends, which always helps and is obviously an accurate one-to-one since we have identical body chemistry, genetic history and emotional relationships to food. 
• First thing I do when I get out of bed is check my paunch
• When waiting at a red light, my gaze wanders over to the pooling fat at my elbows, and, ewwww.
• While brushing my teeth, I turn my head to confirm the lack of definition in my jawline and then move on to the crinkly crepeing of my once not so bad decolletage. You know, just to set the tone for the day.
• I unjustly turn against Nicole Kidman and Julia Roberts. Why them? Because we’re the same age, so it’s obviously a rational comparison. I cynically say to myself- they have time and money and resources to have a trainer and a nutritionist and go to spas and get facials and walk into empty movie theaters in sparkly pinstripe suits, so, of course they look great. And then I get super judgy and say they look too thin. And then, most likely after the second glass of wine, I move onto sisterly empathy for how much pressure they’re under all the time to look good, and when was the last time they could look at a meal and just enjoy it without wondering what repercussions it would have on the rest of their career?

And these are just scratching the surface of how I waste time hating my body. I’m so sorry Emma. 

I don’t passively loathe my imperfections. I do exercise. I do eat healthy meals. I have Noomed successfully, and de-Noomed successfully. I am reckoning with my post-menopausal chemistry. I also still snack like a teenager, enjoy wine more than I should, and need something sweet every day. I do not take any of these to excess. I don’t eat an entire bag of chips or a full sleeve of cookies, or an entire bottle of wine. I do, however, eat the full sandwich. I know eating only half would improve my chances of borrowing Nicole’s pinstripe suit one day, but if I’m going to commit to ordering a sandwich, I’m going to enjoy the full sandwich. Bottom line, I’m not loathing myself while doing nothing about it; it's just that what I’m doing doesn’t work as well as it used to, with the exception of the loathing.

I know what you’re going to say Emma. “Just stop it. Stop wasting your time worrying about it.” You are right. I know this. It’s the how of it that I must find the effort for. Not the eating healthy, exercising, understanding my relationship to food ‘how,’ but the retraining how I think about my body ‘how’.  And so, I am beginning with my aforementioned new mantra “Emma Thompson would be so disappointed in me,” because, I simply cannot have that. I love her absolutely, and her disappointment would crush me.

I will not use this as an excuse to stop exercising or eating healthily Emma, I promise, but I will use it to stop wasting time aspiring to an impossible ideal that perfect happiness comes with a perfect body. I will use it to remind myself to spend my time doing the things that bring me happiness and feed my passions and purpose, one of which is enjoying a delicious meal. I will use it to remind myself that life is to be lived and experienced, not postponed until “someday.” And I will use it, when I stumble, and catch a truthful reflection of what my upper arms really look like, and remember not to mourn what once was but to see and value all that came before to help me arrive at right now; to remember that the imperfections hold stories of the unique moments lived through, felt through and survived and thrived through which make me different than anyone else out there.

And one day, Emma, when you are enjoying a martini and I am enjoying a of glass wine, made sweeter by the incredible deal I got on it, I will thank you in a witty and charming way that will remind us both that we’ve been best friends for so long without even knowing it.

The Hoax of the Jinx

 Often when people ask me how my kids are doing I do one of two things:

1. I tell them details of how they’re doing well, and then immediately knock wood so as not to jinx the upward trend.
2. Or, I just report the facts without emotion, commentary or reaction, much like newscasters from the 50’s and 60’s, so as not to tempt fate.

I tell offsprings #1 & #2 that I am proud of them all the time, but when it comes to celebrating their accomplishments to the world, I operate under a near constant fear that my pride will bring about their fall. Because I’m just that powerful, right?

The thing is, I’ve never wrapped my kids in bubble wrap. I let them eat a cookie that fell on the floor. I didn’t make them wash their hands every five minutes. I didn’t dote over every cut, scrape and literal fall. But when it came and comes to their emotional well-being or their confidence, well, I suppose I bubble wrap that a bit. I did, and do still protect them from that kind of pain too much. And I clearly did not do that well since they have both had their fair share of falls in that department. 

• Their hearts have been broken, their confidence crushed.
• Their anxieties have constructed false or exaggerated narratives many times. 
• They have been misunderstood, and therefore mistreated. 
• They have misunderstood and mistreated.
• They have made bad choices
• They have miscalculated.
• They have failed.
• They have doubted.
• They have given up.
• And they will do it all again

And

They have survived

And

Thrived.

They say, as a parent, you are only as happy as your unhappiest child. It is true. I feel their pain and uncertainty physically; it takes up residence in the acreage between my throat and my heart. And during the heart of their storm, literally nothing else is as important to me. I surrender to the sound and fury, which always ends up signifying nothing because they weather it. Time and again, they weather it. So, it seems silly to fear the jinx and try to control fate with the knocking of what is probably pressed manufactured IKEA wood, because celebrating a 3.89 GPA or a well-earned apprenticeship is not just holding up the shiny result, it’s giving a standing ovation to the struggle that led to the fortitude to persevere when 3.89’s and apprenticeships seemed impossible.

So, on this Mother’s Day of 2024, I celebrate the struggles, the failings, the impossibles and the falls that have shaped the two humans I am beyond proud to call my sons. I will always try to be there to catch you; and if I’m not, I know you know how to get back up again.

The Shiny & The Sh!*

Offspring #1 & Offspring #2,

Be grateful for all of it. 

I will pause now so that you can roll your eyes.

But seriously, be grateful for all of it. The shiny and the shit, and all the boring stuff in between.

I know this feels like an impossible request, and I am not asking you to be grateful for the shit while you’re in it. And I know sometimes it’s impossible to fully realize the shiny stuff while you're in it too, because, let’s face it, we all fear that if we fully appreciate the good shit, then we will be courting the other shoe to drop. Well, my lovelies, the other shoe is going to drop anyway. There are so many shoes waiting to drop in your future. Sometimes it’s going to rain shoes, and you enjoying shoeless days is not going to make the shoe storm better or worse, but it will make it easier to endure the shoe storm.

So, be grateful for:

Enough milk for your cereal.

A well executed parallel park.

The inevitability of rain on grocery shopping days.

Vacations!

The months when you just scrape by.

Having to walk the dog.

Catching a shiny Pokemon

Shoveling out your car

Not getting the job

Getting the job

Extra full order of fries

A puppy’s head on your shoulder

A perfectly crafted sentence

Sitting next to the loud eater of the family on Thanksgiving

Being annoyed by the one you love the most

Being astonished by the one you love the most

Being astonished by the one you love the least

Bacon

Realizing your dream came true

Not knowing what to say

Making someone laugh

The dentist

Being forced to learn how to change a tire, usually in the rain

Pizza Crust

Being exhausted

Chaos

An unexpected pleasant day that unfolded without a plan

A good couch nap

The ocean

Frustration and maturing to the point where you know it will pass

D’Alessandro’s Cheesesteaks

Payday

Laughing

Feeling anything

Recognizing bravery in yourself and others

The Cornetto Trilogy

Etc., etc., …

to be discovered…

Life is miraculous and hard and often beyond your control. But the privilege of living, the moments of awe afforded by the obvious, the ordinary and the OMG far outweigh the hard. So remember, in the moments of deep shit and blissful shiny, be grateful; do yourself the favor of taking even a second to be grateful for it all.

I love you both more than chocolate chip cookies.

The Scarf

I lost my favorite scarf this past Fall. I’m not sure how, it was a large scarf. As scarfs go, it had a long life, 33 years to be exact. It wasn’t fancy, something I bought from a street vendor when I was a student in London (I know, shut up Mary). My 21 year old self had not predicted needing a scarf, and, so, was woefully unprepared for the bluster of London. It was a simple affair, blue and purple squares making up more of a shawl than a scarf. It was on the thinner side, but was surprisingly warm. I got many compliments on it over the years, and it kept me warm inside and out, from cold offices and classrooms, to snowy days shoveling out my car. I have no idea how I lost it, and am still clutching to the possibility that it may turn up, like all those single earrings awaiting the return of their partner.

It feels significant. I know it’s just a lost scarf, something that happens every day, but this has been with me for the entirety of my adult life. It was a comfort, it always reminded me of a time of infinite potential, and it seemed to go with everything. I haven’t found a new one yet, at least not one that scratches old and new itches, and I’m not in a rush, because it feels significant. Significant in all the obvious Nancy Meyer’s screenplay ways: the ways of letting go, embracing the forthcoming, and opening the door to re-definition. But then there are the not so obvious unexpecteds. The glimpses of confidence born of a lifetime often half-lived through too many apologies and accommodations. The forgiveness of personal disappointments walking hand in hand with a more grounded clarity of purpose. The gratitude for the discovery of talents and comforts that don’t need to lead to recognition because they are propelled by joy, not agenda. 

Strange that I lost this scarf the same year I lost my father; someone who was always a comfort, who always reminded me of my infinite potential, and who understood me better than anyone. This last sentence probably feels like the aha moment here. Grief and rebirth. Two losses, two ends of eras. Thesis delivered. Not so cut and dry from where I sit. I still think I’m going to find my old scarf, in the sleeve of some coat into which I did not delve deeply enough. 

Deep down, I know that’s not going to happen. But I’m not rushing its successor. I am allowing that a new scarf will present itself when least expected. A scarf that will address the need at hand, that makes the world less cold. A scarf that accompanies me on the next 30 years. So, I’m trying to both pay attention and not. I did not know, when I found the old scarf, what it was going to mean. For the time being I am making the scarf below. It’s totally different. I don’t know if it will scratch the itch, or just be itchy. So I will relish the not knowing. I’ll let you know the results in another 33 years.

In Lieu of Potato Salad

My father did not want a funeral or an obituary or potato salad events upon his passing. A true Irish goodbye. But here is what I would have shared.

It’s intimidating giving a tribute for such an accomplished and beloved writer and public speaker. One who often aimed to lead with laughter and then sneak in message. One who sought to make tears well but not spill. One who held attention with relatable originality. Yes, this is a daunting task, so I will call upon the master and his words for help.

Brilliance will be adequate.

This is what he said when he dropped us off at school, or whenever we started a new project or adventure. Brilliance will be adequate. He said it with a twinkle in his eye that communicated whimsy, humor and absolute confidence. We all knew he was joking, but what we felt was his absolute confidence that we could handle whatever was before us. He already believed we were brilliant, he just wanted us to believe it.

Life is short, eat dessert first.

I would like to think he coined this, but I’ve seen it on too many novelty items like post-it notes and oddly shaped plates that you can only find at the Hallmark store. But, he said it often. Of course my Dad’s definition of the four basic food groups was cake, cookies, pie and ice cream, ice cream being the preferred dish at every meal. Nothing fancy, just a little chocolate ice cream or a black and white milkshake. Just a simple reminder that life should be enjoyed not endured. Whether that takes the form of travel, or pursuing your passion or going to the movies or experiencing the culinary miracle that is ice cream, life is short, it can be hard, why not make it fun.

Don’t just give your boss what they ask for, give them what they need.

Dad was in the running for a job once. It came down to him and two other people. Each was asked to write a letter explaining why they were the best person for the job. The others wrote what most of us would, a carefully phrased treatise on our skills and what we could bring to the position. My father wrote “I’m from out of town.” He got the job. He never let fear propel him, instead he was fueled by the art of the possible. He saw beyond the task to understand the need the task was fulfilling. He wasn’t afraid to question or suggest or act based on the bigger picture. He did not work just to keep from getting fired, he worked to make a difference, launch change and dare to dream for more.

You must prepare yourself for the possibility that things could go well.

My father never trafficked in worst case scenarios. He always listened patiently as I spun a tale of woe to its potential and inevitable tragic outcome and then he would simply say “You must prepare yourself for the possibility that things could go well.” Things didn’t always go well, but how I handled and looked at them was forever influenced by these words. The way we tell the story of our lives can easily project their course. He chose, and inspired others to choose optimism. His words remind me that even when things can be hard, they are not impossible. 

See the ball, catch the ball, throw the ball.

You can’t do all three at once. I imagine he said this to every person he ever coached. One thing at a time. My dad never seemed rushed. He did not wear a watch or keep a calendar. When asked how he remembered things, he said, “if it’s important, I’ll remember it.” He also said “I probably missed a lot of meetings.” Except that he didn’t, because he made everyone important. He gave everyone his full attention. Whether he was leading a meeting, or giving a speech, or coaching third base, or giving advice, he made you feel like you were the most important person in the world for that collection of moments. He truly saw people, and even more importantly, he made us feel known, loved, and cared for, which is the true secret sauce to making people believe they can do anything. This invaluable gift is what made him such a life-changing coach, colleague, friend and father.

I’m the only one here I’ve never heard of

My Dad once made a brochure, (remember those), because his booking agent said that a lot of public speakers had one. It was entitled “The World’s Most Mediocre Speaker.” Anyone who has heard him speak, knows that couldn’t be farther from the truth. He never read from a page, he never wrote anything down, he never gave the audience a dress rehearsal-always an opening night. He was the speaker that others did not want to follow. His talents took him many places including the White House and Camp David. He could have let it go to his head, but instead, he chose gratitude and humility. When at the podium in front of celebrities and luminaries he often opened with the line “I’m the only one here I’ve never heard of.” It always got a laugh, but it also underlined the awe he often felt at the opportunities he got to participate in. He never needed praise and recognition, he wanted to be useful, helpful; and he was as can be seen in his words, intentions and actions. He never lost the wonder, curiosity and humility of the Iowa farm boy. 

I have a face that looks like it’s already been waited on

As are many of his wise words, this was meant to be funny; usually uttered when a server passed by the table a third or fourth time. And, as I have done with most of his words to live by, I have often stolen and used this one. Until now, I always translated it to mean, I am easily forgettable. I’m sure that’s how he meant it too, but not in a self-pitying way, just in an “I’m an average Joe” kind of way. Now, however, I believe it means that restaurant servers passed him by because he looked content. Because he was content. He carved out a life of deeds, well-accomplished, creative endeavors that redefined originality, service to so many, and loving dedication to family in all of its iterations. He found great delight in being an active and curious observer of human nature, and sought to practice and applaud everyday humanity every day. He is, in fact, unforgettable because he was brilliant, insightful, original, optimistic, attentive, curious, humble and content.

There are not enough words to capture my father, and he would be appalled at how many I have used already. I would not be who I am today without him, and learning to be without him beyond today will only be a little easier because of the words, example and legacy of kindness he has gifted to us all. 

He’d want me to close with a laugh, or a marching band. I don’t have the latter, so I will include one of his favorite jokes:

A guy on the bank of a river, looks across and sees a guy on the other bank. The first guy says: “How do I get to the other side of the river?” The second guy responds: “You are on the other side of the river.”

See you on the other side one day, milkshakes are on me.

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Thank You Target Customer Service

 I'm very grateful for the Customer Service Clerk yesterday at Target in in White Marsh MD. 

I was returning some sweatpants that I bought because they were on the "L" for large hanger. Because I'm a large now because of all the sourdough and Sauvignon Blanc I employ as diversionary tactics from the the panic of the Pandemic as well as the all of everything of 2020. These pants were on a "L" hanger, and I just grabbed them because I don't want to try things on, because dressing rooms now seem like a lethal luxury. So, I grabbed them and checked out. 

I'd been looking for soft sweatpants that were NOT joggers, because even having something tight-ish around my ankles would then pull on my waist band and let slip the latest love handle exposing all eyes to my back fat. My sourdough sauvignon blanc back fat. All eyes! or at least the eyes of my self-loathing inner bitch who just won't shut up. 

So I bought these open leg sweatpants at Target because they will make me feel a degree or two better about myself, which my current pile of too many pants does not. I buy the pants. I take them home and eagerly try them on. They are huge. This makes me happy. The large, is huge on me, like, falling down huge. For a moment I think I am losing weight. I am not, but the inflation of sizes works its magic on my ego and for a moment I feel great. I've never been so happy at a return. As I take them off, I think to take a peek at the size, because, apparently happiness needs to be based on fact. 

These pants are not large. 

They are not extra large. 

They are 2XL. 

I am no longer happy. I am no longer looking forward to this return. I now feel burdened by it. 

And by the fact that I have to make dinner soon. 

And by the fact that it never occurs to anyone else to make me dinner.

And by my husband's and son's bickering.

And by son # 2's struggle with whether to take next semester off.

And his too confident for his age declaration that college is a social construct and not really necessary. (mind you he loves college in non-pandemic times. LOVES it).

When am I going to find time to return these pants?

I try on my drive down to Maryland where I live part time because my husband got a job in DC, but I'm still clinging onto my life in Philadelphia in a current "last" ditch effort to reclaim some of my identity. Except that now I have this job in MD. Very nice people. I'm very lucky to be employed. Also true is that I am very sad to not be doing what I love, and each day of working with these very nice people, I am reminded that I never really believed I was good enough at what I loved. So I definitely see more sourdough and sauvignon blanc in my future.

So I'm on my way down to MD to work on site one day, and I think, oh, I'll just stop by the Target on City Ave. It's on the way. So, I drive there to discover that they have closed early due to an "abundance of caution." And then I remembered the riots because of the police shooting of a young black man two nights ago. And I remember the balance of sweatpants to centuries of injustice is insignificant. And I shut the f!?* up.

So next day, I do my work and begin to head home to Philly because Offspring #1 starts a new class the next day and is nervous. This can range from mild to hideous, so I felt it necessary to be home to cook large meals and generally absorb his anxiety because I need something to work for him. At this point I've been gone less than 24 hours. I'm in no rush to get home.

I'm in no rush to absorb my husband's anxiety.

I'm in no rush to absorb Offspring #1's anxiety.

I'm in no rush to think about Offspring #2's anxiety.

I'm in no rush to rush home to take care of those who are happy to leave me dangling in the wind uncared for and untended like the leggy web of dust gathering in the corner of every ceiling in my house.

And I remember there is a Target in White Marsh. There is also a TJ Maxx. Maybe they will have an office chair to replace the folding chair I've been torturing my back with. I decide to stop.

The line at customer service is not too long. Perhaps this is the turning point my life hinges on. I stand on my socially distant circle. Then my phone rings. I breathe, in an attempt to garner strength, as I see it is Offspring #1 calling. I answer the phone, like a chump.

There is much outrage with his dad. Apparently Husband is driving him crazy. 

I advance in the line. 

I am trying to calm my enraged Offspring whose complaints about Husband are all valid. They are all frustrations I have had over the years, and the Pandemic induced proximity has brought into sharp relief for Offspring #1. The problem is that once he goes down the rabbit hole, it tends to be a long journey.

I am in a public place. I am wearing a mask. I do not want to be that asshole on the phone when at the register. I do not want to be that asshole. But this geyser has sprung. 

And now it is my turn. 

And I am that asshole.

I plunk the bag on the counter, while still trying to calm the kid and get off the phone. I don't even take the time to shoot the clerk an apologetic yet empathy seeking look. I maybe see her face for a moment and a half, but it is miraculous. It is calm and wise. She knows I am dealing with a child's temper tantrum, even though it is not accompanied by the typical visual. She knows why I'm there. She sees the sweatpants. She gets the whole sourdough/sauvignon blanc dilemma. She understands that all of the pressures the everyday citizen is bearing from this pandemic are intersecting at this moment for me. And she processes my return in less than 30 seconds. No words were exchanged. I nodded my thanks and continued my conversation in the restroom alcove.

I left quickly. 

I was grateful for this Target Customer Service genius immediately, but I couldn't register it because of the ongoing tantrum. Not just my offspring's, but my own. My own swirl of shit both real and hyperbolized. And for a moment, not even enough time for a moment, another human being understood and helped in the subtlest and most astonishing way. They simply made my life easier for 30 seconds.

And this is why we will survive all of this, because sometimes we just get each other. We stop battling and competing and comparing, and simply recognize that of ourselves in someone else. We see beyond the noise and the 24 hour news cycle and the extremities that strain to define and limit our humanity. We look beyond our demographic, we forget our talking points, and we simply recognize the human being in front of us. We recognize the subtext of the moment, and we are filled with empathy, compassion and connection. And then the next moment feels easier.

This reminds me of another tantrum. This time Offspring #1 was maybe 2 years old and some change. Offspring #2 was pretty brand new. We were walking on the sidewalk of lovely Chestnut Hill, which is as it sounds-charming and beyond my tax bracket. Offspring #1 was cranky, I do not remember why, and he threw himself on the ground and tantrum-ed away. I attempted to calm the storm to no avail. An older, well dressed and coiffed woman was approaching. I feared the advice or disdainful look that I was certain would come. She reached us, stopped, looked at the Tasmanian devil on the side walk, and then looked at me and said:

"Sometimes you just have to lay down on the ground and cry."

She knew. She understood. She recognized.

So when, in the next weeks, the impulse is to lead and react based on assumption, I propose we all follow the lead of  Target Customer Service Rep and Well-Coiffed Chestnut Hill Woman. Recognize, see and ease.

And Vote.